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(A quote from prajna on another thread)
"The central tenet of the philosophy was the observation that in nature there is a balance between order and chaos; the more one tries to impose order the more quickly chaos ensues".
Now again, i may be a little late to the table here but i think i understand a little.
Another insight into my world,
I have always had the need to be in 'control' not in a control freak manner but the fear that if i take my eye of the ball something will go wrong, for example.
I get payed, i work out my money down to the last penny, where its going, to whom, what i have left and so on. Its almost like a set of finiancial records. Yet no matter how hard i try to keep control of it, it always goes wrong. The next month i try harder but still the same effect, and this goes on for years. The harder i try the worse it gets. I feel that if i give up then something has beaten me, so i dont.
When i wash up, it has to be big plates, little plates, bowls and cups, and thats how they sit on the draining board. Why, because thats how it all fits, its perfect but if someone else wash's up they just put them as the come, so when they are done, i change it because looking at it, it looks chaos.
When im driving, i always try to find the quietest route and no matter how hard i look i only find busier routes.
But i dont stop, i keep trying, and thats with everything in my life, the harder i try, the worse things become.
I am on a self created cycle and it will not only continue but flourish the harder i try to beat the cycle. The only way the cycle can be beaten is by not being in the cycle.
Very interesting prajna, thanks.